Frequent visitors to this website know that that I’ve been discussing the tale of one Jan Mika, who was, when he was alive, a member of the Albany Police Department for over twenty years. On Christmas Eve, he chose to defy God’s will and he intentionally took his own life. Yes, a tough cop went and committed suicide, the tool of cowards. He was also a bully and by definition, bullies are indeed cowards. So Mika was actually a double coward!
In my most recent article, I discussed the fact that I have requested numerous documents pertaining to Mika under the Freedom of Information Law. My attempt to receive autopsy photographs has been denied, as I expected. Turns out there’s a law that releases such information only to family members.
I am awaiting further documents and will publish one hell of an article once those documents arrive, even if I have to wait through the appeals process. But that’s not the point of this article.
I remain joyful in the wake of Mika’s suicide. You can read my previous articles to find out why I am overjoyed by the fact that he finally committed suicide. I knew he was a coward (paying others to beat a writer up as opposed to doing it himself), but I did not think that he was this much of a coward.
Now, Mika was given a Funeral Mass. Turns out he was a Catholic, something that I am. It’s my belief that he should have been denied a Mass. Obviously, suicide is a grave matter as well as a mortal sin and he did not die in a state of grace as I am certain that he did not receive last rites and as such, he did not receive absolution. Therefore, he was not worthy of a Mass, but they gave him one anyway.
You may ask why Mika died in a state of mortal sin. First and foremost, suicide is a mortal sin. And why? Because a mortal sin must meet the following criteria:
- Grave matter
- Full knowledge of the gravity of the sin
- Free and full consent to the sin.
Suicide is grave matter. Mika had full knowledge of the gravity of the sin of suicide. He was my age, so he definitely knew what he was doing was wrong. As a law enforcement officer who never actually had any true influence on anyone, Mika know the gravity of his actions. He probably saw his fair share of suicides, so he absolutely had full knowledge.
The last item on the list is free and full consent to the sin. He willingly picked up that gun. He freely put it in his mouth. He freely pulled the trigger and splattered his brains onto the wall. He consented to the sin by committing suicide despite knowing, as a lifelong Catholic, that suicide is a very serious sin.
To me, nothing excuses suicide, not even mental illness. Was Mika mentally ill? He was a bully, but was likely not mentally ill. Just a coward. Yes, yes, some may bleat about the repose of his soul, but there should be no repose for a soul that ended its own mortal life intentionally.
I was hoping to get crime scene photographs of his head and the brain matter on the wall, but, well, I knew I was going to be denied. But you can’t blame a guy for trying, now can you? No, you can’t.
I have been a Catholic for five years now, after fleeing Mormonism. I am familiar with most of the priests in my parish and our sister parishes. I don’t exactly hang out with them at a bar on Friday night, but I think that I am a fairly good judge of character.
Nearly all of the priests (there’s always one scumbag) who I’ve met and worked with (altar server, sacristan) have character. That’s why I am shocked that one of them actually approved Mika’s Mass. I am disgusted by the fact that the priest who presided oversees my parish. I just can’t look at him the same way again.
I was appalled to learn that he, as well as my parish’s deacon, played roles in the funeral. I had so much respect for them, but I am deeply disappointed by their choice to validate suicide. My respect for them just diminished quite a bit after seeing him conduct a Mass for a coward and bully. It was so sad to see so many people validate Mika’s suicide. Clearly, that room was full of hypocrites, at least in my opinion.
Oh, and lest someone call me a hypocrite, the same applies to me. If I were to commit suicide, I would fully expect that I would receive no Mass. Action, consequence.
I respectfully but firmly rebuke in the strongest language possible anyone and everyone who had a hand in the Mass happening. I am certain that the priest had his reasons for allowing it to happen (maybe due to the changes to Canon Law in 1983), but I am concerned, truly concerned, that he may have unknowingly put himself in a state of mortal sin for rewarding suicide.
It just doesn’t make any sense! I thought he and the deacon were more responsible than that. I am so disappointed that I may cancel my upcoming convalidation, something that has been long in the making. It follows the Church’s granting the annulment of my first marriage. My current wife is Mormon, but our marriage, my second and her first, can still be convalidated. I wasn’t even aware that that was even possible, so I am looking forward to it. But I am so horrified right now that I don’t know how to proceed.
Maybe I can see about doing it at another parish and with another priest. I’m going to take the next few days to evaluate that before making a rush to what may be the wrong call.
That’s how strongly I feel that they shouldn’t have allowed the Mass to take place.
No one who dies in a state of mortal sin can receive a Mass. Or at least they shouldn’t. One who receives last rites and has been absolved of his or her sins is a different tale of course, but a suicidal person can’t receive those rites, can they? Therefore, a suicide for them is a mortal sin. There is never a valid excuse for suicide.
As a Catholic, I am offended, as I’m sure that you can tell, by the fact that Mika was given a Mass. It’s disgusting and appalling. I won’t apologize for feeling that way, nor will I apologize for publicly stating that opinion.
Cue the offended people calling and emailing my parish. That’s just the way that it goes these days. I have personally seen the emails sent by anonymous cowards in regards to me. Quite the campaign they conducted a few months ago, but I’m still here, typing away.
I will not stop writing the sort of things that I write. Not even death will cause me to cease! I’ve been at this for well over twenty years and I have no intention of stopping, though I do admit that I could tone down the vitriol a little bit. Sometimes I go too far, and I have willingly removed three posts that were contradictory to Catholic teachings.
I have suffered some negative consequences at my parish and as a confessional is involved, I cannot and will not publicly disclose details. Just know that I am paying the price for my words. There are things that I was preparing for that cannot, at least for now, be done. Disappointing, but not unexpected. It’s the cost of doing business, I suppose.
Now, as for Mika, I still hope that he suffered greatly before he drew his last breath. Remember, back in 2017, he enticed county deputies to assault an author. He didn’t even have the courage to do it himself. That, dear reader, is the hallmark of a coward.
All that really matters to me is the fact that Mika is dead. I knew that time would get him sooner or later and that all I had to do was sit back and wait. Well, there is no more sitting and there is no more waiting. I just wish that his death came about as the result of being shot by some brave and heroic person. But no, he went quickly and painlessly.
Keep checking in for that article. Once the documents come in, I will be having a field day, tap dancing on the grave of a coward, a bitch, a loser and a failure in life (never one promotion in two decades of employ with APD).
One truth that I haven’t shared before is this: during my last confrontation with him regarding what he did to that poor author, I told him that I hope to read about his death in the news. It took a while to come to pass, but what’s important is the fact that it did come to pass.
Oh, that tap dancing? I meant that to be metaphorical, but given that enough time has gone by, I suppose there would be no harm in making a TikTok that shows me literally tap dancing on his grave. I just may stop by and show off my tap dancing skills! Maybe even whip it out and take a piss or maybe just spit on his grave.
The cemetery where his cowardly remains will be kept has not been publicly published, but through my own resources, I know where he’s buried. Let’s see what happens, folks, but if I do something, I will post it here and on my social media platforms for all to see.
Some may say I’m being too harsh on Mika. I say that I’m treating him with kid gloves!